So here I am what a few hours after my last post and I am sitting here just about ready to scream, throw things throw my relationship out the window and why, because I saw some stupid little comment he made on some strangers picture calling her cute or something, and I am just so out of control right now I want to cry which I just might do, why does he feel the need to make comments like that to some skiny little thing, something that obviously I'm not and will never be, maybe if I was he wouldn't feel the need to make comments like that to other people, why am I not good enough, is he always looking at other girls, flirting with them at work, how far has it gone? has he come home late once or twice because the flirting went farther. Am I really that hideous? I must be if he feels the need to do that, to look at other girls, if he wants to look at them then why doesn't he just leave me already so he can go and flirt with and sleep with those nasty things I am sure he's thought about it, he probably thinks about it all the time...I am worthless and useless and I'm not worthy nor do I deserve him or happiness I mean obviously I can't keep him happy if his eyes are wandering.
And this is the kind of crazy that I deal with all the time, over the tiniest things, you would think writing it out would help but nope still I sit here upset.
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